Thursday, May 05, 2005
fear
suddenly i feel so scared.sigh.maybe im the only one who is stressed.im afraid to fail any of the modules.nowadays,im lyk keep slacking loh.now with the internet access,it turns bad to worst.wat to do?
hmm.just now *A online and we talk.suddenly we touched on sensative issue.i mean regarding to our friendship.i guess she realised it too late already.i have already given up.but well she say that there's a solution to it and say that we both shall give a chance to this friendship.but in my heart,i was thinking,once there's a crack,there will always be a crack.isnt it too late for her to regret now?in the past,i have done anything and everything to save this friendship,but she dun seems to even put in any effort.im tired and so i stop trying.but now she said she wanna it all over again.i agreed.but somehow i just feel that it's gonna be the same again.we are turning around a circle,without a fullstop.at a loss.
yeah.now i have completed the internet search.feel much more relieved loh.den as for the ICA 1,still 1/4 thru.haha.finding things to enchance and make it a better one.
now is late.already 12:57am.*yawn.tired alr.tink i shld be in bed now! and oh yarhs,i just realised that pig(josh) is still either eating supper with his friend or chit-chatting.haha.tml gonna see him again,and maybe he will still say lame jokes le.hahah.look forward though.and oh yah tml gonna study with bev.but must travel far can.tsk tsk.all the way to hougang.sigh.haha...and oh yah..tt bev said that i dun look like those who have a young sis leh..doink.i do have one!i didnt lie leh!haha.den she say i looks like and only child.AS IF ah!how i wish im an only child oso.but too bad larhs.haha somemore she say i got those lonely face,thats y dis lead to her conclusion that im the only child.doink!
sigh.
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