Saturday, December 10, 2005
2 wks.
woke at 10am to practise MS access.read thru,haven hands on practise yet.LOL. and qin promised to wake up at 10am too! BUT she didnt.guess,she overslept ba! bluff me sia.
got an urge to blog,so here i am !
my sis went for a 4 day 3 nite camp,will be back today! frankly speaking,i missed her presence! the house seems to be quieter without her.hees.and also i missed someone to massage for me! well,i admit i MISS her.YAY! she's back,she's back !!
lol,bsides that another bro of mine is back from chang mai too! i missed him alot!glad that he's back,hopefully with some gifts =x.yay!gonna go for job hunting with him soon! ((:
and o ya, there's gonna be a 2 wk term break starting from 19th dec.woohoo! bet most are rejocing now.i wanna make good use of this 2 wk.seriously,i MUST.been slacking ever since sch starts.lack of motivation to do what im supposed to do.
and im kinda sad when i get back my econs paper.i got26.5/40 for my econs.i was like "shucks".dissapointed.but somehow it act as a wake up call for me la.yeaps.so this 2 wk,gonna be a outing wk,gonna be a study wk and im going to be have a heart surgery.
WAIT.
dont be shock when i say im going for a heart surgery.
what i meant was, im gonna ask for a purified heart.
im gonna overcome some areas which i've been holding back and struggling.breakthrough,shall i ?!
fear,pride,faith-less ...these are not going to get me down.
gonna pray that for the 2 wks break,it's gonna be a fruitful one.Lord,im depending on You now!
yeaps.and on top of these, i just wanna apologise to someone.i hope she reads these,cos im really very sorry.
im sorry for spoiling your baby citrius.i didnt mean to.what's done cannot be undone.but im gonna make it up to you because i know how much baby citrius means to you.it means so much,not just a mp3 player.but more than that.i know i've apologised many times,and you keep saying its okay.but i know it pains you that baby citrius is in this state. im damn guilty.i guess nothing can ease my guilt unless i buy a new one for you,or maybe u shld just drop my precious alexis (my lappy) on the floor too.then,i'll feel the pain,u're feeling now.maybe it will make me feel much more better.ppl told me there's no point buying a new one for you because even if i bought one,it had already lost it's significance and definately you're not going to accept it.tell me,what can i do to ease the guilt?tell me,what shld i do to make you feel better.im willing to to go to any lengths to cheer you up.im just willing to do anything that is withnin my limits for you.tell me,i will do it,really.why didnt you scold me straight into my face?why didnt you bashed me up,pinched me,slap me or whatever that can help you relieve your pain and anger?i wun mind if you does that to me.i promise i wun defend back.but you chose to keep quiet.it adds on to my guilt.can you just do sth bad to me for once?once again,im really very sorry (x100000000). this guilt gonna bugged me for some time.i promise i'll make it up to you.sorry baby citrius,and you.
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